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Hipokrit
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Bosan,penat,letih..
Dengan segala penipuan segala lakonan depan di puji-puji belakang dikeji-keji depan tersengih sengih belakang di cebik-cebik depan di sanjung-sanjung blakang di maki hamun itu semua hipokrit... Geram,sebal,sebak... Bila takda dicari Bila ade yg lebih bagus telinga dengar pun mula jadi pekak Mata melihat pun mula jadi buta jasa baik semua diketepi Yalah ada yang lebih bagus Miskin di hina Buruk dicaci kaya di junjung Cantik di sanjung Miskin banyak berbakti Ahh..bila? tak ingat lah.. Buruk banyak menolong Ala..tu semua org boleh buat lah.. Tak hina tp tak kenang..tak herdik tp tak dilayan.. Kaya bagi wang Uihhh..bagus die ni bnyak berbakti.smpai mati aku kenang. Cantik tersenyum.. Ushh..bagus die tu.baik.tak sombong . Bertimbun2 kata pujian.. Rasa mahu lari lari jauh-jauh dari dunia yang penuh drama ni Rasa mahu hidup dengan orang yang baru yang tak kenal biar janggal Asal tak hidup dalam pentas yang penuh den gan pelakon-pelakon handal Yang kulitnya berwarna merah tapi dalamnya berulat <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topWhy Am I Still Not Married? The Silver Lining of Being Single
written on Friday, March 7, 2014 @ <
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“Why Am I Still Not Married? The Silver Lining of Being Single" 1) There Is Nothing Wrong with You! -Allah created the beautiful, unique you, and if He decrees it, someone out there will agree to marry you just the way you are. -So do not despair of Allah’s mercy, and remain positive that someone out there will like you and agree to marry you, in Shaa’ Allah. -Never let others make you feel that if you are thirty-something and still not married, it is because either there is something wrong with you, or because Allah has decreed for you to forever remain single 2) Divine Wisdom behind Perceived “Delays” in Marriage -Marriage can take place at any age in life, even at 50 or 60, as Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) and many of his companions practically demonstrated. -It is also a fact that marriage will not happen within the first 2 or 3 decades of life for every one of us. So we should give more leeway and refrain from making blanket, generalized statements about our older, single brothers and sisters. 3) Becoming Mature and Responsible Enough First -It is not that God is not answering your du’as. Maybe He has already accepted your du’as for marriage with a righteous person, but it will actually happen practically after a few more years, when it is best and easiest for you to enter this sacred union with that person. - He knows everything about you that even you do not know, which is called ‘the Unseen’, or “ghaib” in Arabic. 4)Da’wah Experience and Acquisition of Knowledge -Perhaps God wants you to seek more knowledge and engage in more active da’wah work before you settle down in married life. #These precious years of your youth will never return, and In Shaa Allah, decades down the road, a more mature and wise you will cherish, like a priceless gem, every year of experience that you acquired in the fields of Islamic knowledge and da’wah before getting married. 5) Better than Early Divorce -It could be that your being single, which is a painful trial of patience in your eyes, is a blessing in disguise that is acting as a barrier between you and worse calamities and adversities. 6) Increase in Humility -A delay in marriage increases one’s humility, and makes one more down-to-earth and approachable by others. It also ensures that one constantly keeps turning to Allah in earnest du’as - which is something that Allah loves about His slaves! 7) Blessings Received after Hardship Are Cherished More The more one waits for, works hard for, and remains patient for acquiring a blessing, the more one cherishes it after one receives it.And by then these precious blessings will be so much more worth the wait! <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topLate Update KL Trip
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Really miss going on to a short getaway. Speaking about short getaway, I haven't been updating about my last trip to KL Yes Kuala Lumpur AGAIN! The last I went KL was last 9 months back with Wajihah. Never get bored to go KL, because KL is a good place to SHOP SHOP AND SHOP! Here's a late post on my second trip to Kuala Lumpur with Kak Huda. This time, we stayed at Furama Bukit Bintang Hotel. Package was from AIR ASIA. 2 way flight+2 nights stay in Furama+ Morning Breakfast for only SGD300++. We had our hotel room upgraded superior with 1 bedroom. Yes i only paid $150++ for my part. WORTH IT! We went to Aquaria KLCC and shop till drop at Berjaya times square.
Upon reaching KL Cental station, we took mrt to reached our destination, Bukit Bintang![]() Tadaa! The room was upgraded to the Superior Room with 1 bedroom. We had our early dinner at 1700 nearby coffee shop once we reached the hotel. Yes Roti Canai and Teh Tarik! And on the 2nd Day, we are ready for the aquaria klcc trip! Before the trip, we headed down to Furama Restaurant to get out free breakfast buffet! Furama Hotel provide shuttle service to few locations. They drop us at KLCC, just the right place that we are going.
And now it's time for our lunch! We had Fuel Snack!
Coney Hotdog one of my favourite! After Aquria KLCC, we continue our retail therapy. We headed down to petaling street and shocked to see nothing! So we decided to go back to berjaya times sq which was located nearby our hotel. They are way better! Lastly, on our third day. We did nothing much. Just had our breakfast and slack off in our hotel room before checked out around 1200. Yes, had our leg massage at the LCCT Airport while waiting. I was pretty busy and had no chance to update about it. Looking forward for another trip to Langkawi, InsyaAllah. Stay Tune :) Assalammualaikum <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topIm back blogging
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Assalammualaikum, Here I am again, back here after 8 months of hiatus. Thank you Allah for allowing and gave chances for me to breathe again. There is still chances for me to become a better muslimah, insya Allah. Life was pretty hard for me for the last 8 months and i thank Allah for giving me the strength to go through his test which has benefited me to become a better person. I couldn't able to complete all my 2013 resolution but just as you know (refered to the previous post 8 mths ago), I managed to paint my wall pink and also, completed and passed my studies in Fundamentals Early Childhood and Certificate Infant and Toddlers with flying colours. Alhamdullilah Alhamdullilah! All I need now is 1 step further to take my Advanced Certificate in Early Childhood Care & Education. Insya'Allah. In case you are wondering, If i am still working at the same place or job hoping. The answer is that Alhamdullilah I'm still at the same place. It's been a year now. May Allah ease our plans and ways and guide us every step of the way, Amin! 2014 was still new to me. I decided to refresh and be a new person. After withdrawing from the religious class last year due to busy schedule, I decided to let myself be free every sunday just to learn religious class. Alhamdullilah uztazah gave a me a better understanding on some things that I needed to know. Alhamdullilah! I hope 2014 will be better. I do not have any resolution for my 2014. Just to be a better Muslimah and good daughter for my parents. Of course, I have always been wanting, dreaming and hoping on somethings that I want. But again, I believe in Allah. All we need to do is to ASK Allah. Never stop to make du`a’. Either Allah will speedily answer your du`a’ or He will save it for you until the Hereafter, or He will avert something bad equal to the value of the du`a’. So we should never leave du`a’. The Prophet ﷺ told us, “Do not stop making du`a’, because nobody who makes du`a’ is forsaken.” Insha’Allah, will be answered. The Prophet ﷺ said, “Verily your Lord is Generous and Shy. If His servant raises his hands to Him (in supplication) He becomes shy to return them empty.” (Ahmad, Abu Dawud, Tirmidhi) Remember: our Lord is not forgetful. Sometimes you might even forget that you once made du`a’ for something, but He might give it to you years later. p:s// Bersangka baik lah dengan Allah Btw, here's some picture of me and my collegues at Universal Studio Singapore. My first virgin trip to USS in 2014. There i told you! Never stop making dua! Hehe Yes, please don't be surprised, I gained weight! Ok toodles :) Assalammualaikum ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
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written on Monday, July 29, 2013 @ <
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So in love with pink and black with a lil bit of zebra printings.
Will be painting the new colour on my room wall on this weekends.
Excited much <3
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Assalamualaikum,
Hmm, I haven't been expressing
myself like I used to in my blog like I did before because I guess I
have been using Twitter as a substitution somehow. However, today, the
140-words limit in Twitter might not be enough.
At nights before I sleep, and at
random times, I realise that so many things actually cross my mind.
They are thoughts that I somehow find hard to share even with people who
are close to me. All I feel like doing is writing a gist of this whole
thing in this post.
To cut to the chase, I sometimes wish I could turn back time and mend things or put my life on fast-forward and know how it would be like. Hmm, I know, I shouldn't feel this way if I have faith in Allah. I know I should work towards my goals and leave the rest to Allah. I know I shouldn't be living in my past nor daydream relentlessly about my future. I know these things, so I'm still wondering, why am I even thinking like this?
I don't know, maybe I'm this
overly-concerned type of person; I expect a lot of good things for
myself and I'm afraid some would expect a lot from me too. When things
don't go the right way, I would freak out. If I sense that there is a
chance I won't be getting what I look forward to, I would be super
anxious.
Have you ever felt that way? :/
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written on Friday, July 19, 2013 @ <
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Reminiscing back the past years. 2012 was a meaningful year; and I'm not saying it out of norm. At the beginning, I pictured 2012 as just a continuation of a bumpy ride I brought on from the end of 2011. However, little did I realize at that time that 2011 was about to become the key for me to understand life, to depths that I would never expect I could ever reach. I can never afford to forget a period of time when I was hit by a wave of gloominess that I thought would never go away. As I have always loved writing, I would sometimes sit hours and hours in front of my computer to channel my sadness into my blog in the most inconspicuous ways possible; and during days when I felt better, I'd try to come out with words that would motivate myself for the mean time. But I knew that I was still lost somehow. I tried to ask Allah to help me through and I had my family and friends to support me. I also knew I had to start to learn to teach myself to bear my own problems as well. With lots of effort and help, I began to get back on track again. I am thankful that in the midst of everything that happened, Allah still gave me the strength to still remember not to let everything crush into pieces. Alhamdulillah, with His will, I am now here with my friends taking one step further to fulfilling my lifelong dreams. And being here, I can feel that what I'm getting isn't just what I thought I would get. I basically aimed to be here to study early childhood since i love children and experience living in a society of people from a totally different background. But being here also makes me learn a lesson or two at least everyday. For nearly the past two decades of my life, I have never truly thought deeply of the reasons/ hikmah behind things that happened. Even if I did, I would be afraid to believe in them. But I knew that I want to live life for the right reasons, I must get myself to understand. So I began to open my heart to learn. Now, slowly, whenever something unwanted happens, I would try to recall what I have done and give a good thought of why it happened. Maybe it's a lack of our ibadah to Allah or maybe it's how we treat our family and friends? It could be anything. Everyday has its meaning. The date on the calendar doesn't really matter, it's the amount of good efforts we are willing to put into the day. I hope that you and I will make our years to come better than before and always keep in mind that the years before are for us to learn from. InsyaAllah :) <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topIntrovert ot Extrovert?
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“I have to be alone very often. I'd be quite happy if I spent from
Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That's how I
refuel."
― Audrey Hepburn: Many-Sided Charmer, LIFE Magazine, December 7, 1953)
This quote literally describes me. I have come to realize that as I grow
up, I tend to prefer investing my time in being alone at home. I can
stay inside for a long period of time without getting a dying urge of
meeting up with people. Whenever I'm alone in at home, I could sense
myself feeling content and collected and greatly energized.
I could definitely tell you how much of a stay-home person I am. For
instance, if I had to choose between watching a new movie in the cinema
with my friends or watching it alone at home, I'd usually choose the
latter (unless I'm dying to see my friends' reactions :p). If I had to
choose between attending a grand party with lots of scrumptious Singaporean cuisines or staying at home eating whatever's left in my
pantry, I'd still choose the latter. I assure you, I'm not being lazy
(in spite of often simply telling my friends that I "malas keluar"), I
just prefer staying at home just a little bit too much.
I know that deep down inside of me, on a slightly pessimistic note, I
became like that because at one significant length of time, it appeared
to me as if I was frequently bombarded with expectations. It was
somewhat painfully overwhelming for me. I could say that academically, I
know that everybody is dealing with some diploma/degree of expectation so I
don't think it's necessary for me to elaborate on that. However, I
believe that when it comes to socializing, I'm rather disappointing. In
this case, being a homebody does not help.
Honestly, I'm not a big fan of huge gatherings and over here,
such gatherings are common. Don't get me wrong, the gatherings here are
really splendid and praise-worthy, but I'm not the type of person who
fancies attending gatherings anywhere; be it kenduri or jamuan. I am
rarely hyped about social events. I think I got this trait from my mum
:p If I were to attend one of the gatherings, I'd often find myself
plunging into a state of awkwardness, unless I know everyone in that
gathering truly personally. Due to this, I often become unreasonably
self-conscious. I would think of what people would think of me if I
don't talk to them. I would think of what I would do if I don't talk to
them or if I didn't attend. I would think of what they have always
thought of me. Too many what ifs.
I expressed my concerns to one of my closest friends and she simply
advised me not to think about this whole thing too much. She said that
she would always do what she wanted and she wouldn't care about what
people might think. The thing is, I'm one of those people who annoyingly
cares way too much about what people think of me. I don't want people
to dislike me, but I don't want to be too cautious at the same time. I
have always been amazed by people who don't give tinge of concern about
what people would think of them. When they tweet , they could to tweet
whatever that is on their minds without much filtering needed while I
would be staring at the tweet compose box for ten minutes before I come
up with my serious tweet. Be in in facebook post. When they speak in a serious setting, they
could speak eloquently and spontaneously while I would turn blank in a
matter of seconds. And when they make friends, they make lots of em in
no time, while I increasingly become dependent on 9gag.
I have tried to be out-going with people that I'm not really close with
but frankly speaking, I often end up worrying too much in the end. I'm
not saying that I don't enjoy talking to people at all, but most of the
time, I would end up over-thinking about what I said and regretting
them, even if they were insignificant things. Due to this, at one point,
I pretty much had my self-esteem heading rock bottom because I felt
like I couldn't make it up to par with them. To me, this world felt as
though it was made for bright bold people. I didn't feel like there was
much room for people like me
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Back to Audrey Hepburn's quote, it is clear that she is an introvert,
just like I am. The best thing about her is, even though she's an
introvert, she's well respected for her class, beauty and personality.
Then I discovered that many famous people in our history where
introverts; namely, Johnny Depp (I'm seriously not kidding here),
Mahatma Gandhi (I didn't expect this cause he was a politician right?)
and J.K. Rowling (I am not "jk"! :p). Knowing this truly enlightened me.
These are amazing, amazing people. They were introverts but they were
appreciated and respected.
Eventually, I began to realize that being an introvert or an extrovert
shouldn't be a problem for anyone. Everybody should try to draw out
their potentials and use them to overcome their weaknesses. My weakness
may be at socializing, but I probably have ten shocking abilities that I
have yet to discover. If you have thoughts like I did and if you have
ever felt like you're not worthy of anything, think again. Allah created
every individual unique and definitely worth it.
But then of course, things are always easier said than done. Currently I
feel more confident with myself but I'm still working on not thinking
too much about what people think of me. I guess I had that thought for
too long that it became a habit. It would be amazing if I could worry
about what Allah would think of me rather than what people would. That's
a long way to go and I have many things to mend, but that's achievable
too. I just have to focus on the right things.
Anyway, before I end this, I suggest you take a look at this website (Humanmetrics) if you're interested in knowing your personality type based on C.Jung and I.Briggs type theory. It's a reliable personality test and based on that test, I was classified as an INFP. I did other similar personality tests and I got the exact same results :) Go ahead an give it a go :) <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topshort update
written on Wednesday, July 10, 2013 @ <
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Shite! I have neglected this blog for so many weeks. A lot happened lately, to cut the story short, I survived, Alhamdullilah. School was as per usual with A LOT assignments add on with the assignments assigned at wor took. Busy busy like a bee. Anyways, I can feel how everyone's pretty much gone on to Ramadhan mode, gotta love it! Ahlan wasalan ya ramadhan ♡ How time flies. Syukur pada Illahi :) <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topLife was pretty good
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Fingers are so itchy to type an entry. Here I am updating this dusty blog. Apologize for the late post, it has been 3 months not updating. So let me do a proper one. In case you haven't know, I have completed my fundamentals course. Waiting for results and Insya'Allah if I passed I will be continuing further my studies this coming 2nd July. At the same time, doing a lot of revision on my O levels. Religious class every Wednesday night, Alhamdullilah. And not to forget, work. I am so exhausted. Well, life was pretty tough yes,but nevertheless, I am able to pull through this and I believe there's ease to every difficulties. Besides work and studies, I reward myself a trip to KL with Jee. Had an awesome trip. Do view my albums in my facebook. Putrajaya Mosque is beautiful. I am amazedddd. =D (Subway was good too, thumbs up!) Will come back again to KL for more shopping. (p/s: of course not to forget my girlfriend Ju. Let's plan for this shall we?) That's how life is for now. Thank You Allah for giving us the chance to live. Will update again =] Bye <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topwill be right back
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It's been ages now since last i updated my blog. Been busy with work and school. My time was so busy that i spend most time at home doing work. And alhamdullilah i am still surviving. Update you with my new blog again. Not gonna change the url of course, just got an idea what kind of blog i want to have. Stay tune. :) <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topSome people, different people.
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Some people wake up, intend on changing their entire life, and do so. Some people change their entire life with their last breath saying the Shahadah. For some people, it takes someone dying just to remind them the worth of this dunya. Others go through incarceration before they realize the life they’re leading. Allah guides whomsoever He wills and howsoever He wills. Some are guided by reading one word of the Quran while others take to denying Islam their entire life before they are guided. We are all different and we struggle differently. Praise Allah for being guided but constantly ask Him to keep you guided. Make dua that Allah guides those in your family, your coworkers, your colleagues. Make dua. Because wallahi the power of dua is far greater than anything we can perceive. & when you make dua, be patient. Because Allah guides whomsoever He wills and howsoever He wills. May Allah guide us and keep us on the guided path. May Allah not misguide us after His guidance and forgive us our sins. May Allaah guide our family members, our coworkers, colleagues, and everyone. Allahumma amin. <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topwritten on @ <
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I have to keep reminding myself that it was never about life being easy. It’s about whether it is meaningful or not. & I would rather have a difficult meaningful life than an easy meaningless one. <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topWinter
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“Here’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to stop dwelling. I’m going to stop watching the phone. I’m going to stop looking for you. I’m going to move on. I’m going to meet people. I’m going to live. I’m going to forget all the nights I spent wishing you were here. I’m going to forget the times that it was just us. I’m going to forget the things that shouldn’t have happened. I’m going to forget all the times I opened myself up to let you in, to only get hurt in return. I’m going to forget how I felt about you. Instead, I’m going to subconsciously wait. If you really want me, if you miss me, if you can’t breathe without me, you’ll know. You’ll ring. You’ll text. You’ll visit. And if you drift, if you don’t call, if there’s no texts, if there’s no visits. I’ll know. I’ll know it was never meant to be. And I will continue moving on. And I’m going to walk tall. But in between everything I will forget, I won’t forget the lesson I’ve learned. I won’t forget the feeling of loving someone. I won’t forget the feeling of thinking I’m loved. And I will certainly not forget the pain I was put through to learn all this, to become a better person.” <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topDoamu
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It’s sad when text messages back and forth then turn into slow replies.
Late night conversations turn into going straight to bed. The word “I love
you” lose its meaning already. “I miss you” was never been said anymore. Pinky promises were already forgotten. Everything was starting to fade. It’s sad. Do you ever had WAIT for something impossible to come, HOPE for something impossible to happen, and WISH for something impossible to reach. It’s kind of disappointing isn’t it? In the back of your mind, you’re really trying to use all of your effort just to achieve and get it, yet no matter how eager you are, no matter how persuasive you are, it’s still not enough for things to bend. No matter how strong you are, no matter how good you are in fighting the tiredness you felt, no matter how great you are in pretending that it doesn’t hurt, all of it were nonsense. Because deep inside, you began to ask yourself “what’s the point of trying”? Waiting, hoping, and wishing for something so impossible is like waiting for the rain to pour while you’re walking in the dessert. Possible yet not too possible. And in the end, all you can do is smile and just move on :) <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topAnother collection of mine; Muslimah Fashion
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Assalammualaikum WBT. It's been like ages since last i updated this blog. Been busy working. Cherie Heart was great place to work at. InshaAllah i am sure there will be other great places to work at too. Gain and gain more experiences. Well besides work, doing assignments like almost everyday, i spend most time sleeping & eating. Past few days have been emotionally draining. I've been "stocking up" on food . So for the past 3 days, I've been stuffing myself with FOOD, FOOD AND MORE FOOD. Ah, I feel fat. Had tempura set, prata ice cream, durian, ayam goreng and donuts within 2 days. SHIOK AHHHHH. Thanks for entertaining my food cravings, hunney. Really seeked happiness with comfort food and i am so regret the next day. Gonna have a jog real soon once get my sports shoe. Another option follow the Diet Sunnah Swag or fast. Enuff said. And lastly, the previous post contest, i didn't win. Ah well, my intention to do was to kill boredom anyway. Whatever it is Alhamdullilah. Update you with the next polyvore. Gonna finish up the assignment first. Salam Nur <$BlogItemCommentCount $> comment[s] | back to topMy Everyday Beauty Look CONTEST
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Salam,
Hey there loves.
Anyways to kill boredom and clear my nervousness of my 1st day of work tomorrow. I decided to join e CONTEST in POLYVORE and submit one of my own set.
The contest is about "My Everyday Beauty Look" inspired by TiffanyD. Well i don't really fancy her. But for the sake of boredom, i joined.
And came out my own set.
This is the best i could do for now.
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